How do I cope with ual abuse?

I had a councellor and it never helped me when i was telling the councellor she looks at me with a wierd face.. When i talk to people its like im talking to a brick wall i do know of people that have talked and it has helped them but it depends on the person. I was abused from the age of 9 till i was 14 and till this day it has affected me i cant trust anymore try to find a way to sort urself out dont keep it bottled up inside im 20 and talking dont help me.. it might help you though.. I wish it never ever happened because of the abuse i am still suffering mentally today sort urself out before it takes over you and you will turn out to be like me a depressed cow!! :(